Update

I have written the beginning of this post a couple of times. A lot has happened, so lets start at the beginning and try to see how it goes shall we?

Last fall, I became certified for Personal training and soon after landed a part-time gig. My current work situation was just not a good fit for me and I wanted more than training early in the mornings and a session at night. I started looking and with some encouraging from Q I looked into any openings in Milwaukee. BOOM! Came back with 3 options almost immediately and took one of them for full time. We moved to Milwaukee, which is not easy. I have been working but it doesn't seem to be that I am working hard enough as my full time status is being threatened to be cut back to part time. This could be perilous as I need the health benefits and I need the hours. Also, I am concerned that once I am bumped down to part time that I won't be able to come back to full time status or that they might just cut me or ... and this is the worse for me... I might have to quit.

So basically, my dream has also become a nightmare. Trust me I am none too happy and am concerned. However, sometimes these little growing pains are signals for change. Maybe this is actually a huge flashing red light and siren saying "WAKE UP! WAKE UP!" and that I need to grow some more even if it is unpleasant.

Pity party's are not pretty. Instead of cowering from obstacles, the best thing is to face them head on. A wise person once said,
"The answer is simple, 
the question is complicated."

My question of how do I keep my full time status has the potential to really become a twisted maze of guessing, self-doubt and anxiety. However, if I focus on what I know I need to do and not make excuses to avoid this nightmare. That is how I will conquer it.